The time has Come

I waited, I was wasted. I was disappointed, I was hurt. I was down and was dump. Until one day I survived. I stand again. I became stronger. I became more mature and immune to heartaches. I became wiser.

Till then, I said, I am going to be somebody. Someone who fights for her right. Someone who knows more than what she knew before. A minute later, the clock of my body struck down. it was a sign. It is a sign for me to move, move and move. I knew I can't. But I knew it I will pass this.

I started to stretched out my legs slowly. Slowly till I was able to get my feet on the ground again. At first, it wasn't easy to balance myself. It wasn't easy to walk and start moving forward. Then, I realized, I forgot to gain my strength. I forgot, I have to do something. Something I have waited for so long. Later, my legs stop shaking. My foot start moving forward, forward, forward.

I reach the place. The place seemed new. The place seemed strange. I look around and there I found my name. It was painted in an aqua-blue ink -my favorite color. The letters twinkled slowly, as the man appears on it. A smile that made me frown and a wide open hand that I ignored. I passed by the hallway and found my stuff at the end corner.

Neatly arranged. I don't remember when was the last time I have been in this place. I don't recall where I have been. then, the guy stood near me and said "Welcome back." Out of nowhere I never thought of him, I never had a glance of him. So i asked, where I have been? Why only now? I asked a lot of whys? But he never said one thing.

I stared at him and try to meet his eyes. he looks so gloomy. I frowned till we get closer and there I found myself embracing him. He hugged me back and whispered "the time has come." Welcome to my world baby.

The Frozen Truth

Life itself is undescribable. The frozen truth it brings to every one has the biggest impact where every body wont forget. It is something which we can never escape from. It is something that we can never avoid. The scrutiny of it brought us back to the past. It even somewhat lead us to the path without realizing its effect.

Sometimes we often believe it is just a mistaken fact where we never thought of it as a serious aspect of our existence. It doesn't make sense at all when we think ahead that someone had cause these misery we are dealing with. It is a misery that we actually did. It may not be as intentionally done but it is something that we have to take care of.

As we continue to battle with the frozen truth, it never melts. It make sense isn't it? How could it melt without giving a warm try? The point here is- we avoided the trouble we caused but while doing it, we keep on repeating it over and over. It is like asking for someone's new years resolution where some one believe it could be the best option in making a change.

If I may have to ask, Do we have to wait till new years eve and make a wish that we are changing for the better? Suppose new years will only happen once in a decade, will we have to wait for ten years more to make a change? It is funny how human cherish new years or making a change but they never know how to actually do it.

It is the truth that has been frozen. Thew reality has been ignored and avoided. It is the truth that we keep on aiming  but it is actually the  truth that we let it pass our path. Now that we wanted to have it again, it is too difficult to have it back. This is one of our mistake. It is a mistake that we never thought of it. We let the truth frozen wasn't it?

The Life Itself

Time had taught me to be positive;

Time had brought me up to an ending free;

Time had taught me to be so careful;

Cause life itself makes feel free;

As I look down and think,

Of a place I must go;

A place where normal being go,

Cause Life itself must go.

Carefully I thought again,

Again and again I must stand; 

I promised never again;

cause life itself is full of challenge.

Moment of Moving On

Life must have been tough years and years ago. There were times where people want to end what they have just started, some had gone crazy, some kept their problems alone and work it out until one day they had finally given up.

What would you think be the best solution to any troubles, struggles, whatever we call it, to past it out? It is just one of a few to be ask but I am sure nobody can ever, ever get the best solution until they are on the same situation. People say, this and that, trying to help you out but later that day, have you asked yourself who will be the one to answer your questions?

It is funny but somehow frustrating, challenging, and most of all, disappointing. Why will it be disappointing? To give you my opinion- it is simple- it might have been a problem where you need not talked about it. I t  may a problem that you yourself have solved without consulting friends ideas in the first place. You must have done your part first then later you consult others.

I have entitled this moment of moving on and it may be striking or may not be one but it has something to do with what I had experienced and what I had observed. I live simple life. Simple in the sense of being contented with too simple things. I am like a kid who received a piece of candy and jump for joy. But sometimes we are tested with how we handle things.

I have been trashed down to the maximum level but this is my first time to write it down. I t is a step which I think that I am ready to let it go. I kept it silently all my life but as far as I can still remember how long ago was it, the readiness is here for me to deliver it word by word. I t is no longer painful as it was couple of years ago. Years that I hated people who troubled me. People who tried to ruin my life but thanks to God I succeeded them.

This is the title that best describe what I should have done the first time I felt bad for the situation. Guess what I did to move on? I asked for my friends concern and seek for their advices hoping I could find peace at the end of my day shift yet even on my sleeping time I still get nightmares- too angry wanting to get revenge. I had this feeling and the anger continue to grow years and years.

Until earlier this year, I met a friend who never ask me anything yet He was able to read my anger. He was able to know my concerns. It is amazing and that incident help me to cry out and let go of my anger. I ended talking continuously like confessing to a priest in a confession room. At the end of the day, I feel different. Every thing got lighten.

And why it is moment of moving on? It is the moment of realizing the energy I have wasted from thinking on the best option but  what should I have done instead of thinking? I should have just let that person suffer her own consequences. What I meant for this? I should have just ignored her. But everything is over and now I am moving on. I am happier than before more than happy as compared to the past years.

I know it is not that easy to do but this is one thing that maybe more than one individual will try. Forgive and move on.

Sa isang Iglap

Minu-minuto ikaw'y aking nakikita;

Sa bawat sandali ikawlagi naiisip;

Sa bawat pagsapit ng araw;

Ikaw ang tanging hangad.

Isang iglap lang ng ikaw ay nawala;

Minu-minuto ikaw'y naaalala;

Para bang ang araw ay kay tagal;

Pagka't walang ibang hangad kundi ikaw lang.

Sa pagbago ng panahon ikaw ay hindi malimutan,

Sa isang iglap lang di kita kayang  pakawalan.

Ngunit ang isang iglap ay kusa ng napalitan

Ng pag-ibig na ako lang yata ang nakakaalam.

Masakit sa isip at damdamin,

Na tanggapin ang isang iglap na pag-ibig.

Subalit kung ito'y nakakapagpaligaya,

Ang isang iglap ay parang ilang taon na rin sa'yo sinta.

The Dream

The time has come when a young woman found her lover. She had her dream years and years. She aimed for it night and night - waiting to meet the guy who occupied her  sleepless nights.

After the years of waiting, she promised herself this man will be the father of her future children. The partner of her life, and her companion forever. This made her happy. Her days was complete knowing the one she loves is already beside her.

They really had a happy life until one day, sun didn't shine. It was an unexpected day where the young woman realize the man whom she had have in her existence wasn't real. It was a realization- it was all just a dream. It hurt her much that she wasn't able to deal with it. her parents was so worried. They asked help from other people, from doctors, psychiatrist yet it was too late that the young woman had gone insane.

When the parents had known the story, they tried their best to find the guy that their daughter fell in love with but the guy is already gone. A ghost of the past that their daughter can't accept, that the lover she had in her dreams is just an illusion, not real.