Poetry

Moonlight shines in the clear blue sky,

Reflecting the twinkling  stars in my eyes.

Gentle breeze flloats through the air,

Sweeping through my curly hair.

Sweet music laps gently to my ears,

As my eyes glitter with my tears. 

Aye what a beautiful sight that is,

With my thoughts so lost in the mist.

I sit alone by the sea,

Enjoying the silence surrounding me.

Soon after I leave the place,

As the dark clouds fill up the space.

Then comes the pouring rain,

Reaching for the shelter is my aim.

Goodbye silence, goodbye fear,

To home I return that is so near.

THE NATURE OF HUMAN BEING

Here comes the mind of a curios lad,

Filled with queries, answered with observations,

The lad keeps on seeking the,

The truth that lies behind a hindered imaginations.

Over a night of wondering,

Overwhelmed with each unending dream.

A dream that tortured his being,

To discover its fellow human being.

The study shows the difference of every thing,

Human to animal, things to human.

The nature of human being,

Is it quite interesting?

Humans’ knowledge is definitely incomparable,

To brighten this earth with adventures.

Stories had been told of humans’ importance,

Its sacrifices, its devoured bravery.

Like a hero, who fought during the war?

Humans fight for life, and its knowledge,

Grow as it learned more in this world.

Of human natures truthful endeavor.

To catch up with the reality of life,

Learned with the unlearned stuff to grow.

Be part of the growing nature,

Of his fellow human beings success.

I thought It’s Over

           

It has been several years since I last thought of the past predicament. A way from the truth and and beyond anyone’s expectations. Somehow, life had shown the best of what every body deserved. Moving on to the next leverage of life is what I aimed to achieve. It was a productive year. It is excessively far from what I had expected.

However, each time I try to close the door of the past—— it always knocks me out. However, at times, I don’t want to look back at it anymore. It just there and want me to remember who was I before and who am I now at the moment. It was like dreaming——- it can never be expected when it will appear again, then as soon as I had woken up, I realized it was a dream. Some times may ask and compare whether what I had just experience is a dream or a nightmare.

The idea of moving on is not that bad for. It is the best way I consider to be mature to whatever I ever wanted to achieve time after time. It was never easy to let go things that made you feel miserable. It was never a better way either to runaway from unresolved problem. I know there were times where I wanted to rotate the movement of the clock, however, it can never be.

It was fun reminiscing how stupid I reacted with all those thoughts, now that I sat down and thought of it again—— it wasn’t worth crying for. It wasn’t worth remembering either yet I was so-so much affected which I never realize life is full of surprises. As I continue to struggle with the truth I am aiming for; I step back and locked myself from the closet of anger. An anger that dictates my evil action. Lately, it came to me as a vision that I am losing the real I am. I am full of revenge where I had forgotten to humble myself from the fact that those things are meaningless.

Then upon realizing it, is not too late to back off. It made me feel irresponsible of my actions yet I believe I didn’t hurt  anyone. When I thought of it————- every thing is not over yet. Every thing remain in the middle of the wind ———hanging and left behind to the corner of forgiveness. Then, as I took a glass of coffee to our veranda the next day, the sun never gave the brightest sunlight which I waited for the whole night.

That time I was disappointed. The disappointment lead to somewhere. Then, I thought of it over and over again. There were no specific answer to all my queries that day yet still I waited. I waited a little more until I fully develop the virtue of waiting. Though admittedly, waiting is never a virtue. I dislike waiting because I want to do something as soon as I can. It is like before the lightning reaches the ground or even faster than that. It is very impossible isn’t it.

Another day had passed yet all of what I wanted to achieve never had the solution. Till, I decided to walked along the beach. I felt the early morning breeze. The touch of the of the early morning wave of ocean through the shore. Moreover, as the sunrise appears from the horizon, there was new hope that starts to build up. A hope that seemed to be the only way to make things over.

As I walked back my room that day, I started to write a composition, then from simple composition to a story. Before breakfast, almost reach the second part of the story yet every thing seemed to be unknown. I left my room and had a quick shower for I wanted to watch the native children happily swimming in the beach. As soon as I finished showering, I grabbed my sandwich and settle at the nearby nipa hut. A notebook in my lap and started typing the thoughts I have.

I didn’t notice the children as they approach my location. I only realized I was surrounded with local kids soon after they asked what was I doing. I saved the file, shut off my notebook, and decide to talk with the kids.

They seemed so happy. No worries, they have the wonderful smiles, which seem so envious for me. They tried to be friendly as I played the role  of being casual at times. I know they wouldn’t realize I am making face in front of them. It wasn’t really impressive to make face yet they are too ignorant and innocent of what adults do.

 Few minutes later, I bade goodbye to these children and went back to my room. I try to think of my childhood but it seems to be too very different form what I can see with the children. At their early age, they have their freedom compared to mine. My childhood had this moment where I have to be home all day and look after my siblings.

In short I never had a great childhood. So even now, I still feel the isolation of my past. I seldom mingle with others which people think I am weird. The thought of what happened to em before makes me feel incomplete. I thought it’s over yet still there. It reminds me and knocks on my door time after time.

The Lost Soul

As her days go by and by, she always say like this- can I just runaway and never come back?

Will you be there for me and catch up on me? Her man was shocked. He said, Why? Where do you want to go?

THEN, she said-nowhere. She always wanted to dare somebody- people who cared , loved her, she dump them for no reason.

Late in the afternoon of Saturday, I accidentally bump into her at 7-11, I said hi, but she didn't look up. I said, are you Trisha? Still she's speechless.

There and then, she looks different, I hid behind the corridor so I can observe her from a distance, it disappoints me knowing she's no longer the woman I once admired, cared and loved.

It pains me and make my suddenly yearns of the sweet and lovely woman. I couldn't believe she's gone- her

soul was no longer the woman who once makes me tremble and blush.

I rush to her when someone reaches her, trying to touch her, I am trying to rescue her from trouble, but she just said" let go of me" it's my life. You're nothing to me.

To my surprised, She even showed how she'd changed a lot. I felt on my knees. I cried and braced myself trying to remember, to ask where did I go wrong?

The answer were unsearchable. It's luring my existence. She had lost her life because of me? No way!

I didn't think she'll become something I couldn't imagine. I didn't cause her trouble it's her choice I murmured.

Then, from that day on, I moved on. I never got another chance to look back. I decided to forget someone who ones a special person to me. Her Soul is no longer part of her body which. She's nowhere to find. A lost soul which troubled every one.

Glimpse of Love

I look down the road of solitude. I didn't bother myself to look out, to watch out- then I stumble, the pit is

there, a halo path I shouldn't take. Then I pick up myself and again, I continue to carry along the sadness

and the loneliness of being alone.

I didn't notice the glistening light above me. I covered my face from shyness. I braced it- pacing it. TOUGH!

I said. I didn't realized it will be the beginning of my life's changes. How could I change myself? How could I

be like these people around me? Hey, someone called up, didn't bother myself to check who that is. I walk

fast, trying to run out of the crowd. There in a small space of the world I met him. Tired, but he tried to

catch up on me. He reach my hands and said, please bear a minute with me he beg, catching his breath.

I stepped back, pacing myself from him, readying to run. Hold back or else I'll probably hurt you I warn

him. He's too desperate. Try to reach my hands but failed. I started walking, but he follows me, he

continue to run after me. I hate you, I called out. I don't want to talk to you. Let go of me. Leave me

alone, firmly but my heart started to pound as hard as stone. I have a thousand dream to attain.

I turned around, I saw him, his piteous look, it pains me seeing him kneeling on the ground waiting for

me to run to him. I realized, I had loved him. Teardrops flowing on my cheeks. I can't hold on.

I rush back to him and there he waited for me.

With the glimpse of love I felt for him, it helps me with my whole being. He helps me to stand and move

on. He holds me tight-wrapping his hands around me, makes me feel secure, happy and glowed.

If only You were a Dream

Once I thought you weren't real,

I thought you were just in my dream.

Then, I roll back and forth,

You were there standing,

Your touch makes me realize,

You're true and alive.

Your look makes me tremble,

Your words almost makes me stumble.

I hold on to what I believe,

For I thought you were only a dream.

Avenging the Pain you Caused Me

We fought for others sake. I gave up every thing, sacrifices pieces of me, cause you asked me. You think it was that easy for me to understand and accept your nature.
I have to keep my dignity. I hold on till I was able to do it on my own. I COPE UP WITH THE DIFFICULTIES OF YOU BRAGGING ME TO DO IT and follow your ways.
Admittedly, I followed you unconsciously. I engaged myself from the pain of considering people first not my own being and be subdued with what you wish for. I gave up my freedom, my happiness for your happiness, just to stop us from fighting.
Days and days went by, you are too self-centered, you're too selfish and took away my own happiness. You never dare to  about my feelings, about my ideas.
Weeks and months had passed and yet are still irrational, your actions aren't worth to rely on. You started building the scar of distrust in my heart. You're making me feel stupid.
The scar is getting bigger and bigger, it is building up into nightmares. You're mad because I WOKE YOU FROM MY WEEPING AT THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.
My life is going miserable if I will continue to allow you to manipulate me. Your concern is all yourself satisfaction. I started gathering all my senses and start believing your action dictates that I am nothing to you. You took me in bed not because you love me but you want to satisfy your  desire.
It was  shameful of me. It was shameful  for I had love you more than myself. Then one day, you'd pissed me off. You're flirting with women in front of me, blatantly. I started sounding sarcastic any time you spoke to me,it pisses you either.
You think you can get anything you want from them, I bet they'll dump you and I'll soon let you experience how to get dumped. You have caused me reason to avenge.
Though it tears me thinking of losing you, but if I continue, it feels like you'll soon dump me into the pit of solitude. I am making my way up again. It is my time to avenge you causes me.
It's my time to return the painful moments you had given me. I am still here. I still have strength to fight back. I was too weak to believe what my heart and instinct dictates. Later that day, when you found out I am leaving , you were on you knees, begging, weeping for me to stay, asking for another chance.
I hold back my tears for I am too afraid of showing you are what I wanted. There, you realized finally my presence means so much to you. My avenging wasn't there yet, but we'll see. We can still stay away from it starting today.